Love is 3/4 dream and 1/4 reality

2010-12-06T05:19:00.001+08:00

It's been 6 months since i've updated my blog :)

17.07 - Special

2010-07-17T22:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! MAWKISH BUT LOVE YOU

HAPPY DAY WITH YOU TOO!

2010-07-13T19:37:00.004+08:00

It just somehow occurs to me that i dun feel the same way anymore. It's that simple.
It's not that ive changed, its just the way you display yourself in front of me, total what the fuck.
You can't give me what i want from you at all despite me chanting at you. You're so not automatic. I don't know how to tell myself to give you time and chances because i just cant any longer. I'm so sick and tired of all these i swear. I see it myself that i've changed. But the changes that i made for you, doesn't seem to hit you. Yup, like what she said, Ill be OVER YOUR HEAD, BE LIKE A BITCH if this continues.. and WHATEVER FUCK SHE SAID TO YOU.

O really?

I guess i dun have to say more, you dun have to continue defending yourself because it doesn't work on me at all. Sorry i dont feel like buying your crap. And yes, i dun trust you ENOUGH because everytime i catch you doing stuffs behind my back, you always say you dint. You keep telling me you dun say the right words at the right time. Then, let me ask you, when the fuck will it be the right time may i ask? Who's the one being unreasonable or rather, stating the facts?
By all these acts/attitude i get from you, how the fuck you want me to trust me when you have broken it? How the fuck you want me to tell myself to give you chances once again? I seriously don't have a fucking clue..
You keep avoiding and avoiding the fucking problem. Then, how the fuck are you gonna LEARN, how to solve it when you yourself only depend on me like a little kid to solve all the problems for you like a mother?
I dun message you because i dun even have the mood to speak to you. When i see you, i dun even know what to say or how to put it to you. I can choose to spit on your face but somehow i think its not necessary at all. Sometimes, it just irks me. It irks me that why i dun have the fucking mood to say all these to you. WHY? BECAUSE I AM JUST SICK AND TIRED.
GET IT?

dilemma

2010-06-25T01:53:00.001+08:00

I'm having second thoughts about this.. It's not that I want it to happen. It's just that things that happen naturally without realising. What should I do? Guidance needed..

Now.

2010-06-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

I've Never ever stopped loving you..

TO DO LIST

2010-06-23T16:58:00.003+08:00

Learn to play piano..

Play badminton and cycle like mad!

Go to korea!

Dye my hair( CANNOT WAIT)

Throw away all my books(MAJOR DEAL)
Don't go home ^^
Play!!!!!!

Stuff

2010-06-23T01:37:00.001+08:00

Many thoughts rushing so I just wanna type it down in case it runs away.. I love taemin like omg. If I were to see shinee I think I'd faint on the spot. I miss bran ald. I am thinking whether bran would like me in copper coloured hair. I can't wait for my o's to be over. I wanna go to Korea freaking bad. I want to dye my hair. I wanna see shinee. I want to speak in Korean Lang. I wanna spend quality time with bran but I don't know how. There's this feeling inside of me I wanna tell someone but I don't know how. It's stuck.. 2 more months and I'm done with school.

Learn.

2010-06-22T02:01:00.001+08:00

My mind is in such a mess right now. Mixed feelings rushing through like current waves. I know that you're right. But I just cannot seem to trust and tell myself that you are right. Why? Because ive nvr learn how to accept. How could I be this harsh that gradually the love would go someday? I dun uds why you'd have to tell & turn to someone else when we couldve just settle this by ourselves. No, I haven't told nor turned to someone. I thought we could have just talked it out by ourselves but, no that's not the case. Am I too demanding? Am I expecting too much from YOU? Someone I barely knew inside out but yet being mine? You tell me not to think too much. Can I not be? Try walking in my skin. What impression would they have for me? If I don't love you THIS much I wouldn't have been bothered by it. You should know :'(I try and try and try but it always comes down to this.. The thought of all these hurts me and rly drives me crazy at the slightest thought of it. I don't want to cus I am tired. Been there, done that. 5 times. I think it's enough for me. People don't know about us, what are we going through everyday and what we do. Think, they've only heard yours and not mine. Is it fair? Am I being bad.... I don't know. I srsly don't.

fck

2010-06-10T01:34:00.001+08:00

Get out of this damn house bitch!

baby <3

2010-06-06T16:44:00.001+08:00

I love my babykins!

Wishes

2010-06-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

I wish that; I could spend IM w you, get rid of all these problems and have our lives spent alone.

2010-05-26T22:30:00.003+08:00

I think everyone is finding for that very one thing in life which is - Happiness..

2010-05-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

I guess no matter how angry/disappointed I get, I'd still <3>

ROTTY FRIDAY HAHAHAHA

2010-05-14T17:53:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU

Slacky Wednesday

2010-05-12T21:38:00.003+08:00

Picture taken during Mother's Day.

Today's a wednesday and there's no school, headed over to baby's plc to slack, played scramble and froggy jump on my phone, cooked pasta together, headed back home. Time passes by very fast today. School tmr for an hour only and then its 5 days off for US.

Singapore is indeed boring.. Nowhere to go to have fun. Enjoyed today's rotting session with baby.

&& my hair's long alr! YES!

Happy

2010-05-03T15:43:00.003+08:00

Now, i'm just happy to be standing here w you. ^^